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How to love your addicted child and prevent the worst from happening without losing yourself in the process

As mothers, we inherently put so much of ourselves and our lives on hold to care for and love our children at any age — that’s just part of what I call the “Mom Code.”

While we generally tend to do this less as our kids grow into adulthood and need us less, that can change when we find ourselves figuring out the best ways to support our adult children through their addiction journey.

When this happens, we fall back into the same role we played when our children were younger and unable to take care of their own needs.

After all, it seems like those who are struggling with substance abuse often can not do what we would expect adults to do, like stay healthy, pay rent, hold down jobs, or even pay for their own groceries and bills.

As mothers, we once again push our own needs to the side to show our adult children they are loved while they fight addiction. We once again lose ourselves, neglect our own self-care, and sacrifice our lives to do what it takes to help our children overcome their own difficulties.

And most of us would do this gladly if it meant our children would get well. We would sacrifice anything for our children. What I learned, though, is that my sacrifice did nothing to encourage my son to choose recovery. He got deeper and deeper into his illness.

And the same is true for most of the moms I work with. The “children” continue down this dangerous path, while the moms continue to be consumed by their child’s addiction.

Is it time to get back some of your own life and find time to do the things you truly want to be doing?

There are clear signs that maybe you need to find another way to love and support your child while actually getting back to the life you want to live. Here are some of the signs.

  • Your child is using drugs or alcohol and may be addicted. You can know this is true when:
  • They no longer look or behave like the child you raised.
  • They have crisis after crisis without being able to navigate through them.
  • You hide what is happening from friends and family.
  • You feel responsible and that you’ve failed as a parent.
  • You feel sad because your relationships with your other children, your partner, or your friends have gone downhill. You may notice that the conversations you have with these people in your life centers around your “problem” child and nothing else.
  • You feel all alone, which is very different from feeling lonely. You feel all alone because there really isn’t anyone in your life who understands what you’re going through. For example, your child blames you for something having gone wrong in their life. Maybe you can’t tell anyone for fear that it will put you or your child in a bad light. And maybe when you do tell someone else, their suggestions are just not helpful at all.
  • You’re often frustrated because you aren’t able to find the time or energy to do anything that you used to love doing. Your hobbies and even your obligations fall by the wayside because you’re always “rescuing” your child from their constant crises.
  • You realize that you’re a victim of your child’s emotional, verbal, or mental abuse. You’re frequently blamed by your child for things like losing a job or an apartment, and in their story, you’re always the villain.

Do you recognize the above signs in your own life and relationships with your adult children with addiction struggles?

There’s a good chance you’ve been in one or all of these situations in the past few days or weeks, or maybe even this morning.

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    You promise yourself day after day that you’ll spend time to do what you want — like having coffee with friends. At the last minute, your child calls in a panic and needs you. Your plans are ruined because you won’t be able to face your friends and explain what’s happening in your life without breaking down. They can never know about the terrible things happening in your life.
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    You’ve finally scheduled a long-overdue trip with your partner or to visit family members. You’re afraid to go and not be there when your child needs you, or that your child may destroy your home or steal from you while you’re away. Or you make the trip, but it’s interrupted over and over by text messages and phone calls as your child fails to navigate crisis after crisis.
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    You agree to cover one more cost or payment because you hope that just a little bit more financial help will help resolve your child’s issues. You tap into your savings or retirement account or max out your credit card to try and pay for the help your child clearly needs to pay rent, buy groceries, purchase a new cell phone, help them with rehab treatment — it seems like the list never ends.

It’s time to break out of this pattern of sacrificing what you need — try this approach instead.

Loving and supporting your child through addiction doesn’t mean you have to be at their beck and call, 24 hours a day, every day. No healthy relationship can survive a lack of boundaries like that. Instead, start to separate where your child ends and where you begin.

Defining this separation will allow you to better love and support your child in a way that actually encourages recovery, reclaim your own life and meet your own legitimate needs.

Why should you create these separations? Why will this work?

During addiction, your child thinks their needs are the only ones that matter, ever. You need to experiment with first recognizing and then honoring your OWN needs.

When in the throes of substance abuse struggles, your child will also behave as though the world will end when you DON’T meet their needs INSTANTLY. As the healthy one in the relationship, you’ll need to start practicing ways to slow down their expectations.

You’ve been living in the chaos of your child’s addition for a long time, and you need to create space for your brain to accept moments for yourself, to address the needs you’ve long been ignoring.

Try this experiment today to start recognizing your own needs

Set aside just 5 minutes of quiet time on your calendar for the next 3 days in a row; consider this as an appointment with yourself. Put your phone in another room, turn the notifications off, and document the results of your experiment here, on the 5-Minutes of Quiet worksheet.

NOW, download 5-Minutes of Quiet Time and start.

Get yourself back with my Mom-oriented approach.

When you have an addicted child, the journey can be complex when traveling from where we are to where we need to be to reclaim ourselves. I know this because I was in your place, too, with my son. And on this workshop, you'll hear other Moms working through their own thought process on getting to themselves and their lives again.

And, hard as it may be to believe in this moment, getting back to yourself is what encourages your child to choose recovery.

Give yourself the gift of this workshop! (Free & Confidential)

I hope you find a pocket of joy in your day today.
Reach out anytime, because I care.

Barbara

Certified Family Recovery Specialist (CFRS)

Support@LiveWellandFully.com

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58 comments
Dolly Pierrot says May 18, 2022

Great word of wisdom. I spend money on my kids problems. Always rescue them. 4 kids

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    Barbara Decker says May 19, 2022

    That’s easy to fall into, isn’t it Dolly. -Barbara

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Mae Cook says May 10, 2022

I would like to read some of this materiay

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    Barbara Decker says May 11, 2022

    Hi Mae, You are welcome to read all my published material. If you need more info, please reach out to support@livewellandfully.com and tell them what you are looking for. They will outline what’s available. -Barbara

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Linda Schrempp says April 24, 2022

Everything you said I can relate to. I’m the great grandparent raising my grandsons two children age 7 and 9 and working full time. I want to be strong but crisis after crisis is wearing me down. I work full time so I do not have time for the tutorial but read all that you send me. Thank You so much

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    Barbara Decker says April 25, 2022

    Blessings to you, Linda, taking care of those little ones. That’s a full schedule. I don’t think I’d have the physical endurance anymore to handle 2 little ones, but I guess we find the strength when we need it. My encouragement is to focus as much on them as you can and to find ways to remove yourself from the never-ending crisis. Lovingly but firmly. YOU matter too, and you do not need to navigate situations which you are powerless to solve. Just my 2 cents. -Barbara

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Sharon Falls says April 17, 2022

Thank you, Barbsra. You are wonderful, a gift from God. 🙏💖🙏👍

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    Barbara Decker says April 17, 2022

    Thank you Sharon. Happy Easter if you are an Easter celebrator. -Barbara

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Cheryl Brown says April 16, 2022

Thank you! I wish I could afford your course, but I can’t as I am retired & on a very fixed income. I do read & learn from your e- mails.

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Wanda Pataky says March 31, 2022

Thank you so much for sharing this

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    Barbara Decker says April 1, 2022

    You are very welcome, Wanda. -Barbara

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Lydia Teniente says March 26, 2022

Thank you for sharing

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    Barbara Decker says March 27, 2022

    You are very welcome, Lydia.

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Shirley says March 25, 2022

I just started reading some of your posts….. I realize that this is me! I have lost myself with my alcoholic son who once again has lost any contact w his son and my heart breaks. Of course this is all my fault in my sons eyes. I was one who needed to testify for my grandsons safety which of course broke my heart but I needed to do. So many have the opinion that how could I have gone against my son I. Court but I saved my grandson and thought just mayb it would save my so. But it hasn’t. I want to read more and do what is needed to find myself for the sake of my grandson w the hope that once again his dad will work to get him back.

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    Barbara Decker says March 26, 2022

    Shirley – You are strong and solution-oriented. I can tell because you did the hard thing and put your grandson (the innocent in all this) first. Good for you! If you haven’t watched my workshop yet, please do. You can register from the workshop tab at the top of my website. You will get to meet a few other women who are just like you and me. Welcome. -Barbara

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Gayle Myke says March 24, 2022

It’s Grandchildren doing this behaviour emotional abuse day after day and on Grandchild I have custody of because of addiction. There are siblings as well
The older two are where I have had enough. My part I spoiled and as Gramna thought they would treat me different. Addiction is addiction

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    Barbara Decker says March 24, 2022

    Gayle – Addiction is a family disease and impacts everyone and the children start off as the innocent victims and have to deal with so much baggage. I’m sorry you are being mistreated and encourage you to consider that none of us deserve to be mistreated and find a way to change this. I highly recommend therapy for us ourselves (to focus on us and our feelings and how to cope). I also encourage you to consider the Love Another Way approach which empowers the mom/grandma and allows her to take back the control that she has in a graceful way that still supports the person with the disease of addiction. Barbara

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Koral Harris says March 1, 2022

I have only made one purchase so far and haven’t had time to watch it but I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciate just getting your daily or weekly emails. Sometimes just one small reminder that someone understands what I’m experiencing is all I need to carry on with some sanity. Thank you.

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    Barbara Decker says March 3, 2022

    Thanks Koral.

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Lia carollo says February 15, 2022

MY DAUGHTER HAS BEEN IN RESIDENTIAL TREATMENT FOR FOUR MONTHS I READ ALL OF YOUR E-MAIL AND BLOG AND IT HAS HELPED ME ALOT NOT TO ENABLE MY DAUGHTER WHO I LOVE VERY MUCH ITS BEEN 7 YRS OF HELL FOR HER, HER CHILDREN AND MY FAMILY PRAYING THIS PROGRAMM WILL HELP HER,.

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    Barbara Decker says February 16, 2022

    Hi Lia – Hope this takes for your daughter. – Barbara

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Louise says December 14, 2021

Keep posting. I need to find time to read and do. Im so tired.

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Shelby says December 13, 2021

Please keep sharing. I have found strength from your posts

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    Barbara Decker says December 14, 2021

    Thank you, Shelby.

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Donna yarbro says November 15, 2021

Barbara so much of what you stated is how I feel. My son has been diagnosed aspergers ptsd depressive and aniedty disorder. He did mis use prescription drugs adderall until I talked with the dr how it affects him he is not willing to move on with his life I am living with my boyfriend for I couldn’t live in my own rental due to verbal and emotional abuse I need help I am trying to get guardianship so I can make the decisions and get his moved out into his own place with supports from the stare due to his disability. I feel just awful for I feel like I am abandoning him but I can’t reason with him

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    Barbara Decker says November 16, 2021

    Donna – Yes, I spent years thinking that because Eric has a laundry list of mental health diagnoses, I had some control over how he lived his life and what he did with it. When someone has a mind disease (all of these including addiction are mind diseases), there is not way to reason with that person. And this is why Love Another Way is the approach that gives our children with any/many mind diseases an opportunity to choose a different path for themselves, while we do not feel like we have abandoning them. It is so very hard. -Barbara

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Carol says October 13, 2021

I’ve been dealing with this issue for so may years and I have lost my own life. I’m learning more from you than all the therapists; drug counselors, experts etc. you give me hope. Thank you

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    Barbara Decker says October 14, 2021

    Hi Carol – I hear that a lot and felt that way myself. Like the only thing that could get any attention was trying to save my son and the chaos of the disease (plus at some point parents who both got ill and passed). I’m glad my work is helping and a note like yours is what keeps me doing this day after day, so thanks. Barbara

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Amy Kinser says October 10, 2021

Thank you for all you do..your article are so helpful. God bless you🙏

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    Barbara Decker says October 12, 2021

    You are welcome, and thank you for your note, Amy. Find a pocket of joy today:)

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Kirsten says October 3, 2021

Thank you! Hope to do the workshop next week

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    Barbara Decker says October 3, 2021

    Kirsten – Great. Please let us know how it resonates with you if you are up to sharing. Barbara

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Carol says September 22, 2021

Thank you.

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    Barbara Decker says September 22, 2021

    You are very welcome, Carol.

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Ellen Goebel says August 18, 2021

Almost every word I just read resonates with me or describes what I hear form another individual in my Family Recovery Support group. I have twin 17 year old, adopted, biracial sons who hate me. They have a substance use disorder and became aggressive, violent, and threatening. I broke my “Mom Code” and moved out when my husband did not stand United to get help together. I never imagined I could be in this place but it is my life and it feels like a nightmare. I am trying to learn how to live and live more fully through it by taking care of myself. I never had anxiety but do now. I am not growing fast enough…this is hard stuff.
Substance use and abuse breaks up marriages and families and stresses everyone who cares and loves the user. I am deeply saddened and broken over it all. I need to keep going and growing by taking care of myself and staying well first and foremost. I am sorry for anyone who goes through the trauma of substance use.
Ellen

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    Barbara Decker says August 18, 2021

    Ellen – Thanks so much for sharing – and you are right that this stuff is hard and impacts the entire family unit. I hope you are able to reclaim yourself and your life, even amidst the chaos this disease brings with it. Barbara

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Vicki says July 19, 2021

I’m really feeling the stress from my son. He says he isn’t using but all signs are different. So tired of dealing with it. He works but his temper is unreal. I’m a widow and just tired. Windowed in 2014 and my house burnt down 2017 and that’s when all this began. His older brother is no help.

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    Barbara Decker says July 20, 2021

    Hi Vicki, I’m so sorry for what you are going through. Not the way any of us pictured this stage of our lives going. Very hard indeed.

    If you haven’t already, I’d recommend watching my online workshop to learn more about how we approach things using the Love Another Way Framework. You’ll find the link in the menu, at the top of the page.

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Alyssa Ortolano says January 4, 2021

I have 3 adult, chemically dependent Sons, 2 oldest are by far the worst, younger Son is high functioning and stable but not free of all substances. My health has been declining rapidly for the past 10 years and what I have been doing is definitely not working. Hopefully I can reclaim my own life and sanity.

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    Barbara Decker says January 4, 2021

    I’m so sorry for what you are going through. A lot of us moms have multiple kids with this disease and that makes it so much harder.

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Lynda says January 3, 2021

I worry myself sick when I don’t hear from my daughter.I really want her to detox and work on getting her children back.shhes gone through it twice before.shee also has a partner that uses drugs..

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    Barbara Decker says January 4, 2021

    Yes, Lynda, it is so very hard, and grandkids make it even harder.

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    Korina says July 29, 2021

    Hi my name is Korina, I have been going through the same situation with my daughter and grandchildren, its put a strain on me for sure. I will try anything at this point.

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      Barbara Decker says August 1, 2021

      Hi Korina – I’m so sorry that you are wrestling this and hope that this approach will prove useful to you Take a listen to the workshop if you haven’t already. There is a link to it right at the top of the website. Barbara

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JOY STONEHILL says December 30, 2020

I LOVE THIS, THIS IS THE 1ST I AM SEEING YOUR POSTS, I HOPE I GET ONE EVERYDAY…THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU DO

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    Barbara Decker says December 30, 2020

    Hi Joy – Thanks for your note. I post blogs about once a month. I post on my Facebook page almost daily. And I write a lot of emails. If you are not on my email list, you can sign up for it on my home page http://www.livewellandfully.com. Just click on the button for my free guide and that will put you on my email list.

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Evelyn Culleton says December 30, 2020

Thank you, I feel better just reading your material and I going to try and practice some of suggestions

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    Barbara Decker says December 30, 2020

    Good to hear, Evelyn. If you are not on my email list, you can sign up for it on my home page here. I write a lot of emails about this topic of parenting kids (adult or otherwise) with addictions. http://www.livewellandfully.com. Just click on the button for my free guide and that will put you on my email list.

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Sharon Morning says December 13, 2020

Thank you Barbara, this is a great blog and so needed for myself and others struggling with these issues with a child. You bring hope and encourage healing for ourselves and in turn encourage healing for our child. These small snippets are timely, brief and packed with help.

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    Barbara Decker says December 14, 2020

    Thanks so much Sharon:) That’s the goal – shortish and something that a reader can start with right now.

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Stacy Davis says December 12, 2020

I’m thankful for this group and the many wonderful Mom’s/parents/care givers in this group. The dreaded fear and isolation addiction brings can be devasting and overwhelming. You truly learn how to do things differently- how to love from a distance while not losing yourself thru out the process. You learn you are NOT alone and help is available and it works all the while teaching your addicted children that you love them and they are capable and able to make different choices – including recovery!

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    Barbara Decker says December 12, 2020

    Thank you so much Stacy. You’ve come a very long way, internally and geographically now:)

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Pat N. says December 12, 2020

I joined Barbara’s group when my daughter decided to go for treatment this time. She has struggled with the disease of alcoholism for many years and had many ups and downs. I wanted to do something different this time. I was feeling so out of control.
In Barbara’s group I learned the difference between being clean and sober and doing the work of recovery. I learned that things I had done as a mom were actually delaying her recovery by not allowing her to feel her own strength and also the consequences of her behaviors.
I am learning more about this disease from Barbara and her army of experts. The support I feel from Barbara and the other moms in the program have allowed me to start my own recovery.

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    Barbara Decker says December 12, 2020

    Thank you so very much, Pat. And you are right, we moms need our own recovery! We are worth it.

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JoAnn Goostree says December 10, 2020

I found out about Barbara’s program from a popup on FACEBOOK. And I am so grateful that I saw it. I kept reading about the program and finally took the deep dive in!!! It’s been a great source of peace and support and education for me. I am not sure where I would be today emotionally had I not participated in this program. Over the years, I’ve been to Alanon, therapy, you name and I did it trying to SAVE my son. It just wasn’t possible. And through participation in this wonderful program, I am healing and I know my son’s healing will be up to him. Barabara, I am ever so grateful you and your program in my life. The support I have received is priceless!

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    Barbara Decker says December 10, 2020

    Thank you so much, JoAnn. I love hearing on the calls about how things have shifted for you and for your son:)

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Beth Wallace says December 9, 2020

As a person who responded to this gift offer in the summer, I can wholeheartedly recommend it. After three decades of trying everything I could with little success, I am now loving my addicted child a different and better way and I feel more at peace than I ever have, with my perspective changed and being armed with tools to handle the chaos that surrounds addiction. Best of all, I believe this is the only way a parent has any hope of leading his/her child to choose recovery. If this blog describes you, you deserve the love, kindness, wisdom and support you will find here.

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    Barbara Decker says December 10, 2020

    Thank you so very much Beth! And thank you for your words encouraging others to trust that there is another way to love, a way that brings more peace and positivity for the legions of Moms wrestling this horrible disease.

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